A born failure...

I have not been here for a long time, in fact, the heading of this one caught my eye as soon as I opened up my blog. I had a title, but nothing to go with it. No words to fill in that huge blank spot at the bottom.

Funny that should be the first thing I see today, that pretty much is how I am feeling. We all have those days. It comes from things that might happen on a regular basis or might be triggered by something said.

Are you born a failure? Some might argue that no we are not, but I  am here to say, we are. See, we're born sinners, every single one of us. That was a let down huh? But by Gods grace, we are saved from that sin, and can move on with life.

Now some of you might be saying to yourself right now, "Tank, why you getting all religious on us for". Simple answer to that for ya... I felt the need to write it out today. Something was pushing my heart to just let it out. So I guess me seeing that unfinished post was meant to be for today.

The funny thing about our Lords great grace is, he gives it, not the folks around you. You see, when he says you are forgiven, its done....now us folks down here, thats a completely different story. I've even said this, "I might forgive, but I'll never forget". Is that the way it's to work? Not at all!

Admit it, Y'all have said it, and better yet, just be honest with yourself to admit it. I for one know I have wronged a few folks in my life, and there has been some that have me. But if we all continue to throw a backlash of reminders at each other, we're not going to move forward very well at all. In fact, we just might fall back a couple steps until we realize that we are beyond the point the wrong started.

Life has a real funny way of taking one small mess and turning it into something that looks like the storm of the century hit. The world we live in today is a huge "born failure" mess, the bright side of it, we can change it.

I guess all I  am trying to say is, if you are going to forgive, then forget. If its something that you can not move on from, do not say it.

Big Man Out
Tank

Lifes little lessons...

So many times I have stood tall and firm on things I have said. I have proven over and over that if you want to push an issue with me, I will shove twice as hard back.
My life has been a roller coaster ride, many ups, downs, twists, and wicked turns. I almost let drugs and alcohol ruin what I am today. I remember my son asking me where my friend were from high school, and the look on his face when I showed him. First I drove past the county jail and pointed. Right there sits some of them I told him. We drove for a bit more just talking about some of the stupid stuff I did as a kid, laughing at some of the stupidity. He didnt notice that my truck had come to a stop. I cut him off in mid sentence and said, there a a lot of them there...the graveyard.
He had a confused look on his face, but took it in. I then told him that I was one of the few from the crowd I ran with that did grow up. And that I found out that I didnt need to be like all the others to feel good or fit in.
Today, I look back on my days and wish I had a few of those boys and girls here with me today.... but that would of not taught me some of those lessons.