Broad shoulders, heavy load...

How many of Y'all can walk on water?

None? That is surprising! With the way tons of folks talk, I thought for sure some could! I'm not perfect, not even close. Just like all on Earth, I have faults, and I am able to admit it!

With that said, I want to tell y'all about a dream I had at the start of the week. I normally don't talk about my dreams, but this one kind of shook me up a bit. I'm not sure if I died in this dream, but I was able to look down at myself and everyone that was around me. I could hear how they were talking about me and my life, and it hurt.
I could hear my wife and kids, and it was not good! I could hear everything from what I did wrong, never did right, and what they thought of me.
Beside them was my two brothers, all I heard was what a loser I was. How I was a spoiled brat, and got away with too much.
The in laws were saying that my wife should of never married me, and should of left me years ago. That I never amounted to nothing.
There was friends of mine that thought it was funny, and that I would be forgotten in less than a day, if not in less time.

This past week, I can honestly say that dream has huanted me!
To be honest, I feel I have failed.
I really do...
I hear it in the way I am talked to.
I see the looks I get.
I feel the harder I try, the harder I fail!

But do we all not fail? Even those of you who may look down on me, I know very well you can not walk on water! And if truth be told, your a failure just like me. The only thing that differs from us...
I Will Admit that I Am

Big Man Out

Tank

Christmas list, part two...

After I posted my list, I do have another list. But it's not just for me, it's for Y'all out there. Show the world around you some Christmas cheer

1. Buy someone who is down on their luck their meal

2. Buy a $25.00 gift card and walk up to a total stranger and hand it to them

3. Buy a hot cup of coffee or hot chocolate for the local bell ringer, it's cold out

4. Help a child at a store with a gift for their parents

5. If you are in line at lay-a-way, put $25.00 or so on the person in front or behing you

6. Make sure to help the elderly

7. Go to a nursing home and just visit a new found friend

8. Help at a food pantry or soup kitchen

9. Get a group of Y'all together and go caroling 

10. Help the soon to be or new mother at the stores

11. Invite someone or a family in your home who is down on their luck

12. And this one my friends is the most important one...

Keep Christ in Christmas

Remember the real reason behind the season!

Pretty simple don't ya think? If you start now, y'all just don't know who might return the favor !

Big Man Out

Tank

Christmas list 2013...

Every year we are asked to make a list to give to someone that has what we would like on it, here is mine for 2013...

1. To hear my Mum yell Joseph one more time as she smacks me in the back of the head for saying something 

2. To listen to my Dad sing and watch him dance around one more time

3. To be able to smell the cook stove and Sunday dinner at my Grandmas

4. To go fishing again with my childhood friends

5. To tell Butch just how much he really did for me before he passed

6. To play cards again with Shirley...And to take all her pennies

7. To be able to give all to my wife and kids

8. To have my dog be able to walk normal again

9. To have Christmas dinner with my parents and brothers one more time

10. To ride the roller coaster again with my Dad at Blands Park

11. To have a job i enjoy going to

12. To be able to continue to loose weight

That folks would be my 12 days of Christmas wish list. 

Big Man Out

Tank

The wrong person

I do my best to earn my pay. I will miss breaks, work through lunch, and do the dirty work no one wants to do. I stepped forward and and took two job titles no one wanted. My job, it's a thankless one. Y'all see, I am a state worker. The public thinks were all worthless, and to be honest, so does management! Everyone thinks I make the big buck, but I am looking for another job just to make ends meet. 

We the workers are the backbone, no two ways about it. We are the ones who sweat, bleed, miss out on family time, yet the lowest form of life. We get called out durning Thanksgiving meals, or while our children open presents Christmas morning. But never a "thanks". 

We do the work for some foreman, and even a few higher ups. Why, because we are told to. 

I was told that I made a huge mistake when I took the two job titles. I just brushed it off. Well, today I found out they was right. I know a job is what you make it, and I try to make the best of it... Till today!

I now plan on coming to work, doing my job, and going home. I will no longer place trust in management at all. I know now that everyone is here for themselves. I will still be the first to jump in to give a hand. I'll still do the best work I can do. I will even try to advance, but not for them, for us, the thankless.

I know that I myself will never be able to change how this place is ran. But I will not treat others the way I have been. 

Big Man Out

Tank

Brightest crayon in the box...

I find it pretty funny how stupid people really can be. No, really! Can't people look in the mirror and see it? Is there a pill yet for this?

I know, you can't fix stupid. One can only high five them... In the face.... With a chair.... Multiple times!

So with that said, I know I am not the brightest crayon in the box, but come on. With the way technology is today, and the rumor and drama mills are, it's not hard to figure things out.

I know, short and kind of a silly rant, but I had to get it off my chest! 

Big Man Out

Tank